He Who Makes A Beast Of Himself, Gets Rid Of The Pain
Of Being A Man!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
I dont live my life for others
Something triggers me today that i felt quite uneasy about. May be its just me... or may be its my paranoid thinking. May be its the way i thought what others might think made me think other wise, Dont get it?? neither do i. So many things that i wanna tell these people but not quite sure how they'll react. But secrets are not ment to be told. A Few weeks after this entry may be, i'll be serving my National Service. Having thoughts though. What if something happens to me... will i return to see my love ones. Anything could happen at any point of time. He decides when i'll go. Some how or rather, butterflies running through my stomach, thoughts kept on thinking of death. Not that i'm suicidale or anything. But am i ready yet to face what lies ahead. Some say its fate or even its ment to be. Did we do something about it? I guess everyone wants a perfect life. Perfect this, perfact that. Nothings perfect! What we get is not of our desire, what we want we cant acquire. Instead we got something else that we are not quite sure off. And still live with it. To me its not about what we want. Its about what we have in front of us and appretiating what we have that others doesnt. We tend to get over board of our own reality. Lying to ourselves of what we think should be the right decision. Yet feeling half heartedly.We dont usually get what we want in life. But to work on what we want in our life matters most even if we have to sacrifice? All i say... It depends on each & every individuals. I dont live my life for others.... its hope & faith. Well do you agree??
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