He Who Makes A Beast Of Himself, Gets Rid Of The Pain
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Thursday, December 25, 2008
When They Say Its Time, Then Its Time!
hello there Q! how u doin? very much affected? oh well i know your not doin much cors you're just it. For these few enties all i blab about was just how long have i not continue bloging. even my english grammer has gone all the way down. Then let this entry be a short time jus for the sake of taking shity things out my cheast that has long been stuck in my chest.
Life has been so fast pace lately. Can't get time for my self. The only time i have is only with u Q! Wow That sound so fetish. Gotta make full use out of ya. By the way Q is a laptop i bought for nearly 1 month of my untouched salary. I call it Qa'ilah, 'one that speaks'. Enough about Q. Lets talk about something else.
Ok, back to my boring life. Everyday is somewhat the same rutine. Just that it covers the same senarios with a little bit of fucked up people sometimes. Yes, thats' including me of cors. I know i'm a little fucked up sometimes. They called it alpha male 'EGO". We do have it, just need to let it show at the most right moments. Well every morning i wake up with this feeling that better things won't be comming my way if i dont act soon. Act what....?!? Find what I'm really interested in. Here are two things i'm yet to achieved. 1st - a commuting vehicle as a purpose of transportation. 2nd - get M.O.L to play local gigs so as to get the local experience before we label ourself as a local under ground BAND that fuckin rocks. Doesn't matter if our musics sucks. 3rd - Fly. And i mean really fly. Skydive. 4th - still able to sustain that monthly income as years gone by to pull myself through the financially tough time HERE in THE LION CITY. Oh wait did i say two, i mean hundred & one things i've yet to achieve. But still life is definetly a job because without working we ain't got money, without money we cannot achieve what we want to do. It'll always comes back to that dollar sign. Some times I just feel so used. At the end of the day used up my time and mind that i seldome have time to even plan my days ahead in order to be on track with the fast changing world. Always get stucked somewhere along the way. No wonder.
As you probably know, i just achieve my riding license a few months back. But yet to get a commuting bike as means of transport. Then again, somethings are much more important too such as housing payments need to top up, daily expenses, monthly contributions, personal needs, personal life savings..... bla bla bla..... and the list goes on. If not i could've had a bike which i trade to get myself a laptop 1st. Even so i didnt get to use it that much till as of now which time i'm free. And guess what ........ virus starting to circulate again & again.
Money... money money..... every day is all about money. Even when we go out or stay at home still uses money. Just that how we use it what i think is important. It seams that I somehow uses money like breathing air around me. Half of what ever I earn goes to my stomach & the rest goes seperately to which ever contribution that I wish to give. Even now I used up my money on my own entertainment. Please...!! Not personal pleasure.... just something i think is positive. For some reason or so I hope it fills me with something in life creative lesson.
Ok crap... crap... crap.... lets talk about some thing else. Lately I've been thinking about exploring. I mean you know going out experiencing life at it is. Like travelling out of the country, seeing the world, doing thing you didn't think of doing. Example like bungee, skydiving, seeing other culture in other country. Yup thought of doing all that. Ok let set a date. You know they talk about it, went on it & came back with stories so motivating. I do think i wanna join in. Make a first step to a brand new day. First step to feel free for a moment. Its not everyday we get to do all these things. But just dont talk about it. Live it. I think it almost time for me to live life. Face the fear of fear itself. WE control freedom. WE also must control fear. *sigh* Fear to me is a big word to face. So its a start. WE Q i think its time for me tell you that a change of environment it needed to a more discovery of myself. Leave you with the stories. They are better read than told. I Spoke My Heart At 2:58:00 PM 0 comments
Life has been so fast pace lately. Can't get time for my self. The only time i have is only with u Q! Wow That sound so fetish. Gotta make full use out of ya. By the way Q is a laptop i bought for nearly 1 month of my untouched salary. I call it Qa'ilah, 'one that speaks'. Enough about Q. Lets talk about something else.
Ok, back to my boring life. Everyday is somewhat the same rutine. Just that it covers the same senarios with a little bit of fucked up people sometimes. Yes, thats' including me of cors. I know i'm a little fucked up sometimes. They called it alpha male 'EGO". We do have it, just need to let it show at the most right moments. Well every morning i wake up with this feeling that better things won't be comming my way if i dont act soon. Act what....?!? Find what I'm really interested in. Here are two things i'm yet to achieved. 1st - a commuting vehicle as a purpose of transportation. 2nd - get M.O.L to play local gigs so as to get the local experience before we label ourself as a local under ground BAND that fuckin rocks. Doesn't matter if our musics sucks. 3rd - Fly. And i mean really fly. Skydive. 4th - still able to sustain that monthly income as years gone by to pull myself through the financially tough time HERE in THE LION CITY. Oh wait did i say two, i mean hundred & one things i've yet to achieve. But still life is definetly a job because without working we ain't got money, without money we cannot achieve what we want to do. It'll always comes back to that dollar sign. Some times I just feel so used. At the end of the day used up my time and mind that i seldome have time to even plan my days ahead in order to be on track with the fast changing world. Always get stucked somewhere along the way. No wonder.
As you probably know, i just achieve my riding license a few months back. But yet to get a commuting bike as means of transport. Then again, somethings are much more important too such as housing payments need to top up, daily expenses, monthly contributions, personal needs, personal life savings..... bla bla bla..... and the list goes on. If not i could've had a bike which i trade to get myself a laptop 1st. Even so i didnt get to use it that much till as of now which time i'm free. And guess what ........ virus starting to circulate again & again.
Money... money money..... every day is all about money. Even when we go out or stay at home still uses money. Just that how we use it what i think is important. It seams that I somehow uses money like breathing air around me. Half of what ever I earn goes to my stomach & the rest goes seperately to which ever contribution that I wish to give. Even now I used up my money on my own entertainment. Please...!! Not personal pleasure.... just something i think is positive. For some reason or so I hope it fills me with something in life creative lesson.
Ok crap... crap... crap.... lets talk about some thing else. Lately I've been thinking about exploring. I mean you know going out experiencing life at it is. Like travelling out of the country, seeing the world, doing thing you didn't think of doing. Example like bungee, skydiving, seeing other culture in other country. Yup thought of doing all that. Ok let set a date. You know they talk about it, went on it & came back with stories so motivating. I do think i wanna join in. Make a first step to a brand new day. First step to feel free for a moment. Its not everyday we get to do all these things. But just dont talk about it. Live it. I think it almost time for me to live life. Face the fear of fear itself. WE control freedom. WE also must control fear. *sigh* Fear to me is a big word to face. So its a start. WE Q i think its time for me tell you that a change of environment it needed to a more discovery of myself. Leave you with the stories. They are better read than told. I Spoke My Heart At 2:58:00 PM 0 comments
