during training. Tell my mom i've had 2yrs of my life here & during my
time here i've learn some of lifes lesson. The will to survive is the
only way to be side by side or above the rest. We do cos of we want to do
it. But life here is like a string, fragile, easyly snap if pulled too
tight. From a boy i'm learning how to become a man. Taking control of
what i believe, putting positive attitude into it. I love them here but
their negativity really is killing me. Being friendly is just a day to
day thing. When business comes in there goes the trust in us.
Treatenings' nothing new here. So if i'm gone during training its fate and not an
accident as my time have come. I love my mom, dad, my two sisters more
than i love myself, i love the new member of my family(he's the light
in our darkness), those ppl i met in my life........ its a never ending
list. May god forgive me."
Sitting down eating wheat crackers & milk, i realise that we left
another 3-4 months of this life. After this we are on our own through out
our lifes until we meet again during our reservist. Time past so fast. I
had only remembered that time we had fill with anger but cant do
anything about it cos we are still bound. Tough times dont last. But do we?
Seems to think that way. All of it could end up a memory. Good or bad.
Some memory touch your heart and some leave a scar on them. Some good
events are best to remember but some are better left buried under those
rubbles.
Its been a while since i've update my blog. Been not that busy but
uneven schedule make it sounds like one. Haven't been thinking much lately
yet however time will tell. I shouldn't wait for it to happen... Look
forward, work on it, then let it flow. May be some but not all. Who
knows things might tend to change that very last minute. By then do we walk
the talk or still have to plan. Or may be let by. Either or, life will
uncover the dark sides, thats when we see light and walk towards it.
The good thing is how u deal with it. Then it'll be lifes' very own
lessons. So pull up the loose boxers and hope it'll stay up that way as
lifes' very own stories. Life.
~Seems like for now i'll be skipping my entry every time i'm not near to any internet resources..... But then i've always got my QD. Its easy now to put down whats up in my mind. Although its sometimes shorter than shortstories. QD my only boredom-free resources...
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