He Who Makes A Beast Of Himself, Gets Rid Of The Pain
Of Being A Man!
Sunday, June 25, 2006
aku dah malas
AKU DAH MALAS NAK LAYAN KARENA HIDUP MANUSIA ZAMAN SEKARANG.......... zamani dah balik campong tanam padi.... tok masa tuanyer nanti.... jumpe gadis bergelar isteri..... tembak saner tembak sini.... luper puler harger diri.... cari kejer makan gaji.... mintak tolong anak bini.... mintak hutang keliling cheti.... bukak meja tagak todi.... kene tangkap mintak simpati... sampai masa bunuh diri..... apa nak jadini.... dengan melayu zaman ini..... hayalan makan diri..... sampai bila nak jadi macam ni.... teguh sikit salah 'sini'..... macam lah pandai sangat, baik sangat, bagus sangat, betol sangat, tahu hal sangat, world sangat.......... oh shit i forgot... its none of my farking beeezzzznersss RIGHT!!
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
lost completely lost
have u ever stare at a certain piece or object to realise that u r actually dreaming. i mean day dreaming.... well sad to say i'm doing a lot of that during work lately... i dont know why but i think i get what i'm actually thinking of at that very moment. may be its just because that i'm too tired or just thinking about my past. some times i smile and some times tears fall from my eye. funny thing is that my buddy usually notice that and asked me... like he could understand. it seems like i'm doing a lot of blankstares and i just can't help it. could be the surroundings was so peacefull or quiet. i sometimes could not shut my eyes and doze off when my mind is on to something, but then when i'm not aware of it i got scolded by my peers for dozing off.... even if i were to say whats on my mind right now... i just could'nt make it out. i dont really put much on my blog lately cors i'm not that free. even if there's time to book out i just dont see whats there to not be said. may be time will tell. or is it to late for me. could keep thinking about it finally make me understand what it is thats bothering me? it seems that i'm lost.... really lost... and i dont know what...
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
[IS THIS]My Second Home{COULD BE]
Today he wanna talk about his second home.For the past few weeks, as he's only been given 1 day off, te feeling of staying in is like not a very bad feeling. During the time when he had a 2 daze off at home, He juz wanna grab his stuff and juz go home. But then as time & problems come up, going home or staying at home is like no freedom to him. Its like he'd rather go out have fun and then bk in back at nite. Then the next morning juz wake up get ready for duty. Duty had been fun as well as challenging. Its like visiting the zzz..... monsters every week and keeping smart and 'wayang' all the time. But apart form that relising he missed his loved ones make him feel like and outcast when at home. "Everytime BROTHER comes home, always not in a good mood. Then BROTHER starts to post his garangness to the loved ones, then regrets to feel like a totally changed person. For what reasons BROTHER was thinking at that very moment was really not something that was wise as BROTHER forgets his roots and leaves."
Evan how hard he tries to rejects the negitivity, he got stuck to being a total arsehold. Its like when he express himself too much, They tend to use it back against him head on with no holding back.
May be he just need a small portion of somewhere to spend on his space to just be by himself. The space is not much. Just the person that he had been in the past, the present him & what he would become in future. What ever tomorow 'lies' for him just think of it as finding a way out in a maze!!
!!!!!HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!
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