He Who Makes A Beast Of Himself, Gets Rid Of The Pain
Of Being A Man!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Wish
I had a wish then. Wishing i was exile from the world of pain, lonely, backstabbing, ugly, demanding lairs. That was 2 years ago. But now i feel like that was only just the beginning. When i was enlisted, a new chapter of it begins to show a dark side of life. Through it i seek to find the light. It surely comes with a price. A price i have to earn to get to see light. Even it takes to leave everything behind. Then i saw something along the way that made me linger. All i want was to perform my best but with out support i couldn't be one. I bleed. I teared. I suffered. I Yield. I kept my patient. I called shots. Even then it not enough. Within the period, I am sparta. But now I realise I'm none. Its like waking up from a coma. Fighting my way to wake up & trying to move. Even now I'm struggling to trap water. In real world people think they are superman. Even when they have the right stuff. There must be a time we must realise that even superman is not perfect in many ways. Even so who am i so say such things. Ending a chapter, starting another?
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
Nearly over
Its nearly over now. My patient would be running dry. All the
irritants, sub-childish thinking young premature adults, semi-minded arogen
freaks.... will be gone from my site now. No more shouting, no more
arguing, no more critisizing threatening. All will be gone. Lookin forward to
a new chapter in my life. Hoping to begin fresh & new. Hoping to get to
where i plan to go. Hoping to become what i want to be. Hoping to
achieve what i've been striving for. Even if it takes another cycle of it. I Spoke My Heart At 3:37:00 PM 0 comments
irritants, sub-childish thinking young premature adults, semi-minded arogen
freaks.... will be gone from my site now. No more shouting, no more
arguing, no more critisizing threatening. All will be gone. Lookin forward to
a new chapter in my life. Hoping to begin fresh & new. Hoping to get to
where i plan to go. Hoping to become what i want to be. Hoping to
achieve what i've been striving for. Even if it takes another cycle of it. I Spoke My Heart At 3:37:00 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
junkie......
Again.... I'm using the computer like its a machine that never fails to disapoint me. But what really matters is juz the time , speed and juz hopes it never crash. Downloading movies or tv series are fun where u get to watch it over and over again. Waiting for it to load and watch it online, thats kinda frustrating to overcome. There's not a lot of episodes to watch. Even movies are half way loaded. Some are interesting but some are total crap. But having waited for each to load takes nearly half a day for tv series and freakin 12hrs for a movie. But when it was just about to complete, lets just say the electricity went BOOM. Everything just went blank. ARHHH!! Just waiting to watch ugly betty, veronica mars, wald hogs, Bean' Holiday and meet the robinson. Now all back to square one. I spend 12 hrs not sleeping just to wait for it to complete. Now, DAMN... all the waiting for nothing. But now..... finally uploaded, watching Veronica Mars. I wonder if there's a complete season 1 on it. Finally i confess, i had a thing for tv series now than i had then. All because of watching much of some in camp maybe. I Spoke My
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blogging again......
blogging..... its one of my ways to past my time while using the computer. It could also be a way to let my thoughts out. Journal... updates on life for friends to read about. Seems to be a trend. But ever since i had less time with updating, what have i been doin. Well sory to say i'm beginning to slack my ass out with free foods, snacks, soft drinks..... and all that stuff. Being lazy now is not what i had expected to overcome in the next fews dayz. It is going to take much effort like before..... going back to square 1.
then i've always have a goal to go for. But ever since it was so close and merely imposible to achieve it in time, i think it may be not mine to have. On the other hand, it could be different otherwise. Other than that i'm glad with what i have right now. Just need some extra improvements to expand what i'd like to overcome.
this month had been the most slackest time i'd ever had. Even in the mist of it all i manage to reflect back what made me say what i say even though its a slip of the toungue. Though i may not want to say it but its just me being myself, beginning to be me. I may come to realise why people tend to say what they say, do what they do. Having the nature to be themselves. I should too.... I Spoke My Heart At 3:41:00 AM 0 comments
then i've always have a goal to go for. But ever since it was so close and merely imposible to achieve it in time, i think it may be not mine to have. On the other hand, it could be different otherwise. Other than that i'm glad with what i have right now. Just need some extra improvements to expand what i'd like to overcome.
this month had been the most slackest time i'd ever had. Even in the mist of it all i manage to reflect back what made me say what i say even though its a slip of the toungue. Though i may not want to say it but its just me being myself, beginning to be me. I may come to realise why people tend to say what they say, do what they do. Having the nature to be themselves. I should too.... I Spoke My Heart At 3:41:00 AM 0 comments
Monday, April 02, 2007
The start of a new day...............
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Noserils fill with smell of taugae as we past through Oasis. Beating
green, amber and red as we turn right to copeland Avenue. Mounting curbs
and soft sands as it wobble its way across the open patch. Stood there
waiting were packs of tounge sticking tail waggling mischeivious wild
dogs. Cute & cuddly. Bark so unviloently. Eat so noisyly. Jump so
playfully. These are one of the residents of Pulau Sakra. We call them watch
dogs. At first they were two. Then came two more. Now they add another
5 to the pack. But the other two made their way alone to another shore.
But do not be decieved by their innocent look. They will attack one
that wears different from us.
My trip doesn't end here. To some its a beginning. But to others its a
whole different meaning. Pumping only thirty, bumping up down left
right front back. It was an unpleasent ride cutting through cold breeze
along side uneven 11th Ave. Gravels, potholes, softsands. The journey
never ends..........
As i sat my eyes out to sea, waves crashing along the clusterd rocks,
there i saw the orange tip of the rising sun creaping up along the
horizon. My eyes staring still underneath covered uv protected visions.
green, amber and red as we turn right to copeland Avenue. Mounting curbs
and soft sands as it wobble its way across the open patch. Stood there
waiting were packs of tounge sticking tail waggling mischeivious wild
dogs. Cute & cuddly. Bark so unviloently. Eat so noisyly. Jump so
playfully. These are one of the residents of Pulau Sakra. We call them watch
dogs. At first they were two. Then came two more. Now they add another
5 to the pack. But the other two made their way alone to another shore.
But do not be decieved by their innocent look. They will attack one
that wears different from us.
My trip doesn't end here. To some its a beginning. But to others its a
whole different meaning. Pumping only thirty, bumping up down left
right front back. It was an unpleasent ride cutting through cold breeze
along side uneven 11th Ave. Gravels, potholes, softsands. The journey
never ends..........
As i sat my eyes out to sea, waves crashing along the clusterd rocks,
there i saw the orange tip of the rising sun creaping up along the
horizon. My eyes staring still underneath covered uv protected visions.
The start of a new day...............
