When They Say Its Time, Then Its Time! hello there Q! how u doin? very much affected? oh well i know your not doin much cors you're just it. For these few enties all i blab about was just how long have i not continue bloging. even my english grammer has gone all the way down. Then let this entry be a short time jus for the sake of taking shity things out my cheast that has long been stuck in my chest.

Life has been so fast pace lately. Can't get time for my self. The only time i have is only with u Q! Wow That sound so fetish. Gotta make full use out of ya. By the way Q is a laptop i bought for nearly 1 month of my untouched salary. I call it Qa'ilah, 'one that speaks'. Enough about Q. Lets talk about something else.

Ok, back to my boring life. Everyday is somewhat the same rutine. Just that it covers the same senarios with a little bit of fucked up people sometimes. Yes, thats' including me of cors. I know i'm a little fucked up sometimes. They called it alpha male 'EGO". We do have it, just need to let it show at the most right moments. Well every morning i wake up with this feeling that better things won't be comming my way if i dont act soon. Act what....?!? Find what I'm really interested in. Here are two things i'm yet to achieved. 1st - a commuting vehicle as a purpose of transportation. 2nd - get M.O.L to play local gigs so as to get the local experience before we label ourself as a local under ground BAND that fuckin rocks. Doesn't matter if our musics sucks. 3rd - Fly. And i mean really fly. Skydive. 4th - still able to sustain that monthly income as years gone by to pull myself through the financially tough time HERE in THE LION CITY. Oh wait did i say two, i mean hundred & one things i've yet to achieve. But still life is definetly a job because without working we ain't got money, without money we cannot achieve what we want to do. It'll always comes back to that dollar sign. Some times I just feel so used. At the end of the day used up my time and mind that i seldome have time to even plan my days ahead in order to be on track with the fast changing world. Always get stucked somewhere along the way. No wonder.

As you probably know, i just achieve my riding license a few months back. But yet to get a commuting bike as means of transport. Then again, somethings are much more important too such as housing payments need to top up, daily expenses, monthly contributions, personal needs, personal life savings..... bla bla bla..... and the list goes on. If not i could've had a bike which i trade to get myself a laptop 1st. Even so i didnt get to use it that much till as of now which time i'm free. And guess what ........ virus starting to circulate again & again.

Money... money money..... every day is all about money. Even when we go out or stay at home still uses money. Just that how we use it what i think is important. It seams that I somehow uses money like breathing air around me. Half of what ever I earn goes to my stomach & the rest goes seperately to which ever contribution that I wish to give. Even now I used up my money on my own entertainment. Please...!! Not personal pleasure.... just something i think is positive. For some reason or so I hope it fills me with something in life creative lesson.

Ok crap... crap... crap.... lets talk about some thing else. Lately I've been thinking about exploring. I mean you know going out experiencing life at it is. Like travelling out of the country, seeing the world, doing thing you didn't think of doing. Example like bungee, skydiving, seeing other culture in other country. Yup thought of doing all that. Ok let set a date. You know they talk about it, went on it & came back with stories so motivating. I do think i wanna join in. Make a first step to a brand new day. First step to feel free for a moment. Its not everyday we get to do all these things. But just dont talk about it. Live it. I think it almost time for me to live life. Face the fear of fear itself. WE control freedom. WE also must control fear. *sigh* Fear to me is a big word to face. So its a start. WE Q i think its time for me tell you that a change of environment it needed to a more discovery of myself. Leave you with the stories. They are better read than told. I Spoke My Heart At   2:58:00 PM 0 comments

  Official ”Slacker Day“ [NDS BLOGGING] Waah! Today was not what I had expected. Yesterday came home late. Felt dizzy upon reaching the front door cause i had not enough sleep. Felt tired after a long day of werk. And a whole lot of laughing & too much imagining. Had quite a long laugh and conversation with the wytes. Never had we hang out like that for quite sometime. Talking about banglas, camels & apek. Happy meeting the people again after like so long.
Due to sleeping like 3hrs & 30mins, now i'm getting dizzy sleepyness. Felt my eyes shuting down but my hands moving anymin.
Now i'm so need to sleep I Spoke My Heart At   7:32:00 PM 0 comments

  NDS BLOGGING ROUND 1 [testing] Greetings every one! Today`s the 1st time i'll be using nds to blog!! They say its impossible but nothing's impossible!! You only need wireless connection. Thanks to my sis, its gona be quite a blogging day ahead. **HUNT FOR [FREE] WIRELESS NETWORK** I Spoke My Heart At   8:28:00 PM 0 comments

  i'm so not me.... the only day i have to get back on track is only week ends.... but seems like there's only one day off weekends... thats sunday... monday,tuesday,wednesday,thursday,friday,friday,sunday..... evenso some poeple get their day off on sat n sun and still get to get home in time for dinner. seems like this is part n parcl=e of working life. evenso theres no reason to complain, seen others never get to come back home to see family as they're work timminigs are round the clock. but they're bring in big bucks home. my work load right now has nothing to do with my interest nor educational linings. its a whole new beginnigns which i have to crash a lot to ever thinking of keeping up. neither knowledge nor experience. rookie but initiative to get back on track with the others. they have the experience and knowledge & ego to boast about their needs. i just have my patience & self needds to attend to. having said that... i 'll try to excell in any way possible for my needs to achieve..... hate to be worked up about little things. but these little things will then turn to bigger problems if kept for too long. damn it!! I Spoke My Heart At   2:42:00 PM 0 comments

  the more the less so far so good. aint got nothing to complain about. everyday feeling slugish, sleepy, lazy. over all slacking. work life currenty is much more challenging though. thought of bailing out after i've gotten mycert my now got stuck with a huge responsibility. dealing with hypocrit is never easy when ur in the middle of it all. dont want to be in that spot again but their words are sharp as needle. u dont even realise it untill its been pulled out. some people... they are just bold enough to say they've the reason its been running. even so then go off lor if ur not happy. i'm staying to extract money from them... after i'm satisfied enough i'll take off like rockets..... but 1st i must get what i wanted for so long . currently working on it. once got it... i'm open to proceed to the end zone. after i have sucked extensive fund from them. then i can trade for either my interest or invest it in i small side biznez. furthure more people have to move on in thire lives.... like for me now... i'm trying to move on to take another step into adulthood. good bye childhood... goood by teen years.... now to act & become an adult... taking responsibility.... eeerrrr hate thats now... but lan lan to grow up need to experience and turn it positive. if not start now then when? bla bla bla infomality of blog means i'm currently sleep typing. I Spoke My Heart At   2:04:00 AM 0 comments

  will return soon i will blog again soon... i need to blog... cant help but this thoughts in my head..... wil return bloging..... must blog.... my head too tight** I Spoke My Heart At   10:07:00 PM 0 comments

  THE near death experience...  I Spoke My Heart At   12:32:00 AM 0 comments