season greetings Q... how has it been? i know... its been long since. the past years have been such a good and bad experience for me. lost some... gain some. nevertheless experience gained.
Q, i would like to tell you a story of a boy... who had no plans for his future, met with some obsticles thru his journey. for him, life started when he completes his journey of compulsary service to his nation. he had no plan on his future life. so he decides to get a job, earn a living and pay his bills. he decides to sends his covers and testimonials to a number of potential employers, but a few replied to his effort. some were high expectation to recruit juniors but some needed experienced. endless waiting and searching, he lands a job in the trade industry. through out his nearly 5 years hardship against his peers and management, he managed to pull through with professionalism and patience. he learned a lot about work and life. being recognise by peers through out the different departments. but had some hiccups with some. develop new ideas but shunt by some. to him it has develop from a dream into a nightmare. as though every single day awaiting for some shit to happen. he finally gave up the fight and decides to move on by getting more external experiences. its finally time he get on his feet and explore the outside world. he decided. he left in peace. not burning bridges or grudges. now he's happy. looking forward to what he could achieve. personal achievments. his journey continue 3 months.... he waited and kept searching to be back earning a living. his funds was draining... getting lesser... and lesser... and lesser... time was running out. he decides to grab any oppotunities that comes in his way. finally he had two security oppotunity. he lands on one of them... flexibility. 6 months he need to complete his bond. it was havoc... non that he had expected. not such a good talker... now he have to talk. some customer service... another nightmare. but he likes the environment. he pulled through for 8 months... while he look for a better oppotunities. during this times of hardships... he fell in love. it was during his first full time job... during his duties... he was instructed to transport some documents onu his superior busy schedule. he was so kuku blur at first on who to deliver it to, so he ask a lady (a newly recruted receptionist in the office). with out even looking at him, she just point to an empty space beside the desk. that was like a a smack to the forehead. the point he started to a conversation or small talks was when started to regularly make trips to the office. small talks then began with a gifts and more small talks. soon exchanging messages... texting... till movies on a weekend. awkward moments soon become comfortable conversations. weekends was frequent. honest conversation. he was, on a date. a few dates soon become close relationships. in a relationship. it was gittering for him at first as he have no clue what will come out of it. of pass aquaintances experience. he rely on his gut feeling. there he was trying to be honest and true. didnt want to be like the new generation who are exposed too much to western culture... not to mention his. tried a little bit hard to be a gentleman. he tried. leaRning to be in not his comfort zone, he learn a few thing about growing up. learning about love and how it felt like being loved. he was a noob. hard decision to be made during this time had him thinking of the past. being thrown question about his grown up future and what his plans. he was stun. as he was trying to earn a living which is not even enough for his everyday expences, marrige was the only thing that he was unprepared for. stressed out of what lies ahead he decides to live with what he had. he reach his breaking point when he took up other job oppotunities which he could land in. being in a lesser stresses mode, relationship with his love become a little stagnent. due to fund drying... he decides on less spending more concentrating on earning. which lead to less time spending with his love ones. with a little more time thinking of what needs to be done to sustain his relationship. then the nightmare of every relationship begins. problems... crisis... unwanted words and constant explanation on mistakes and intentions. he then took a step back. trying his best to keep up whith the lost time to pursue an idea. an idea became stagnent just like his relationship.... soon he got lost along his way. loosing faith on his relationship... on his capability... on his ownself. breaking point. breakdown. lost his way. before he self destruct. he calls it.quits.
