He Who Makes A Beast Of Himself, Gets Rid Of The Pain
Of Being A Man!
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
[=-The Perfect Lie-=]
ok... this few month hav been a hell of a days for me. why?? Because i'm really getting confused. A part of me saying that i should carry on with the life i'm living rite now, but a part of me kindof starting to give up on what lies ahead. It seems like i've got no mood to rely on my experience or my intuition to really make any more effort. Does it come to this very moment that i've to give up evrything just for the sake of not getting into anymore deeeeep shits or troubles. Just wanna let go but why is it so hard for others to understand that i'm just being plan old fucking me. People might say that i'm giving up on hope. Believe in fate... or have faith in what u do. That would be a real joke if nothing else matters to me. Am i in ITE just to make things happen?? I came here to continue my studies. Not to further my studies. If education matters most then why am i playing a fool. I'm not here to take charge of my life, i'm here just to explore what i can and cannot do. But it seems like things or should i say shit happens for a reason. They say i got the packedge, but what they dont know is that all those are bullshits. Then, i was just following orders. But now i just wanna think for myself. Poeple telling me what to do , i follow. But when i tell poeple what to do, do they follow??? The generation now is not like the generation once before. Now they use more of negativity rather than positivity. What have they got to say? The fact that we are humanbeings doesnt make us perfect. Must we take advantage of the facts? We live to learn, but not to learn to live. Thats my say. And the fact that i'm putting this crap in my blog doesnt mean i'm wise on how to live my life. I need to learn, but sweetness turn sour easyly. How am i to taste life's precious moments. They listern to problems but do they solve it for us. Hell no. They r there to listern, They give their advise, some tell what to do. But do they listern to their needs in life? Needs, wants, desires, having this kind of thoughts really make me sad cors the end is near. What are we doing right now??? The search for truth is blinded by crud lies. Just another perfect lie.
I Spoke My
Heart At
11:38:00 PM
